In my life when I let the illness define me I thought that doing what “normal” people do would be the cure.
The world tells you what’s acceptable. You think you’re supposed to do these things.
Only you cannot repress your soul and expect to be well. Ill health is the result of being cut off from your true self.
The ultimate goal as I see it in recovery is to become who you are.
Show up as this person wherever you go.
Self-doubt and confidence go hand-in-hand. As I wrote in You Are Not Your Diagnosis:
My employment history shows that one of three things is possible:
- You’re just starting out and haven’t yet figured out the ideal workplace.
- You loved your job or career when you started it and today it no longer thrills you.
- You thought that this particular job or career was the one you wanted. It doesn’t work out and you’re forced to change.
Knowing yourself and what you are suited to do and not do is the key to success.
If you have to act false to yourself on a job you’re rolling a wheel up a hill over and over like Sisyphus in the Greek myth.
I say: get a second job to supplant your primary income rather than continuing to show up as an imposter to a job you’re not happy doing.
If you’re not happy doing your job you won’t be motivated to excel so how can you be effective at it?
This is the definition of “spinning your wheels.”
In a coming blog entry I offer a remedy for dissatisfaction.