Changing Minds, Changing Lives

I realize a therapist or psychiatrist has a limited amount of time in an intake to delve into what’s going on in a person’s life.

Yet I make the case for asking thoughtful questions as a follow-up to what the patient has told you instead of making an automatic assumption about what they’re capable of.

This blog entry is my Open Letter to Providers: stop stigmatizing and stereotyping the very individuals you’re in business to treat and to help recover.

If you think a person diagnosed with schizophrenia or another mental illness can’t recover: why exactly did you go into this field if you don’t think that what you do can help others recover?

Do you take great pride in “spinning your wheels” as the saying goes without moving anywhere in what you can do for patients?

I was told I was too low-functioning for therapy. Years later I was told I was too high-functioning for therapy. I was told I couldn’t possibly have schizophrenia. I was told that going into therapy would set me back and jeopardize my recovery.

Four different therapists: four wildly divergent assessments.

If you are a provider, I urge you to change your mind about what people diagnosed with schizophrenia or another mental illness can do. You’re responsible for your actions. If you don’t think we can recover, what do you think we can do with our lives?

Do you really take pride in spinning your wheels when you think no one can recover?

Do you really think stringing us along in endless “treatment” that could lead to dependency and despair instead is the right thing to do?

This reflects on your own self-worth as much as it reflects on your patients.

Take a tip from a doctor who told me: “The only acceptable treatment outcome is total symptom relief.”

Bella De Paulo, PhD in her book Singled Out detailed a research study that bordered on being unethical in my opinion. A teacher was told certain students were intelligent and other students weren’t smart. Don’t you know the results of the study showed that the teacher treated the supposedly intelligent students in a positive way and they got better grades? The teacher reacted differently to the allegedly stupid kids and those kids got poor grades.

Providers have an extra requirement to do no harm to their patients.

Not everyone is like me and is going to champion herself and her goal of getting a full-time job and living independently. Twenty-five years after I dared do that I will always wonder why I was able to believe in myself and think I could do what I set out to do. The reason I was able to speak out might always elude me.

This is why I will not ever place the goal of getting to recovery solely on the actions of the individuals diagnosed with schizophrenia or another mental illness. Not everyone sees a mountain like I did and wants to move it. Most people need encouragement and positive feedback along the way in their recovery.

I’ll end here by saying that if you’re a provider, you owe it to yourself to elevate the status of your patients: in your eyes, in their eyes.

Change your mind and you just might change another person’s life for the better.

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Winning

The playing field isn’t level for people with mental illnesses. Whether because of stigma or because of the battles a person fights against their own mind: the playing field is only level when you compete against yourself.

You can win when you choose to compete against yourself. You might even be able to win when you compete against others for a job or a promotion, or a spot on a sports team, or a place in graduate school.

I’m most interested however in the day-to-day: the pockets of time everyone lives in every day. In how we must celebrate little victories as well as milestones like 50.

I make the case for redefining success when in fact the playing field isn’t level.

I urge every parent to love your kid for who they are not what they can do in life. Get a pen and piece of paper and write down every great thing you can think of about your loved one. Try to write down at least 20 positive things you can see in your loved one. Keep on going.

Do this for yourself if you have a mental illness: write down five things each day in a grateful journal that you’re thankful for.

Winning isn’t always becoming a neurosurgeon against great odds. It isn’t always the result of competing with others in society.

In my book winning is as simple as taking action in the direction of your dreams. Winning is one day when you have the energy setting the dining table with a place mat elegant flatware and your best dishes. Winning is getting out of bed.

Winning is when you decide to like yourself even though you don’t see yourself reflected in media stories about successful people.

Winning comes when you accept that you are a great person just the way you are. You don’t have to apologize for your existence or justify to anyone else how you live your life.

Winning is not throwing in the towel. It’s telling yourself: “I got halfway today. That’s good enough. I can try again tomorrow.”

You win when you understand that you can’t do everything and have everything that other people have. You win when you’re grateful for what you ARE able to do and ARE able to have.

You win when you plant the seeds and water the grass in your own garden instead of envying other people’s grass.

It isn’t greener over there.

Each of us must define “success” in our own terms.

That as a fortune cookie stated: “There is no shame in failure only in quitting.”

Winning is making the effort even when the odds are stacked against you.

Winning is trying your best every day knowing that your best will change from day to day.

Winning is flashing a smile to someone who’s hurting.

Winning is tipping a waitress who’s been on her feet 10 hours 20 percent.

Winning is the little things.

Everyone’s a winner in my book.

You’re a winner simply because you try your best.

Tutti-Frutti Treatment

Too often it’s the norm that people are turned away from the hospital doors. They’re sent out into the community where they get sicker and sicker. Then they commit a crime that lands them in jail where they have no chance of getting better treatment.

More and more too community mental health centers (CMHCs) are ill-equipped to help people who are sick. Their recorded messages tell you to go to the nearest emergency room. Where you’ll undoubtedly be turned away.

My experiences with CMHCs have been dismal. From 1987 to 1989, I was shunted into day programs. I had to stand up and shout louder to be given the right to pursue my goal of getting a full-time job and living independently. It was an ongoing battle to be given crumbs from the table that normal people feasted at. I wanted a seat at that table. I wanted to have a better life.

The CMHC staff no one there thought I could do it. You were supposed to be folded up and zip your lip not make waves. I rebelled the role of “mental patient.” I had higher expectations for what I could do in life. My mother too booted my ass to get a job.

Circa 2015 I wonder if this has changed. You’re bounced around like billiard balls from hospital to jail to hospital to jail. CMHCs don’t want to treat you either if you’re sick.

I have the dubious honor of having had a therapist tell me five years ago that she couldn’t treat me because I was high-functioning. I thought OK she could be right. I had gone to her in good faith. Five years later I’m stuck on my own trying to get help and once again I have no hope of getting help. Waiting lists exist that are a mile long or else there are no appointments and no waiting lists at other agencies.

In 1993, I was told I was too low-functioning for a therapist to treat me. Three weeks after that, a therapist told me I couldn’t possibly have schizophrenia. “You can join my group but don’t tell the others you were in a hospital.” He imposed a gag order.

What’s up with this tutti-frutti treatment?

More likely it’s rocky road trying to get help.

The mental health system is dysfunctional.

Good luck getting help when you need it.

This is why individuals get worse because their situation magnifies into something unmanageable.

Left untreated, or left without treatment for too long, a person has a snowball’s chance in hell of having an easier time of it in life. Everything they want to do could be a battle. Nothing will come easy.  The Internet abounds with stories of bloggers whose lives are enduring hell because they didn’t get the right treatment as soon as they needed it.

I want that no other human being should live in this kind of hell. I want that no one who needs help and seeks help is turned away. I want that everyone has the equal opportunity to succeed.

The Benefits of Early Intervention for Schizophrenia

At HealthCentral in March and April and in the coming months:

I’ve written and I’ll continue to write news articles about strategies for coping with symptoms.

I understand that a lot of people still have symptoms so I’ve decided to focus on strategies for managing symptoms.

My self-help books will give tactics for individuals living with mental illnesses who might have symptoms or might not have symptoms, either way.

Yet I don’t think a person should have to live with symptoms if they don’t have to.

It’s my contention that remission is a worthy goal to shoot for. And the quicker you get treated, it’s possible you’ll achieve remission quickly.

You shouldn’t have to suffer endlessly because treatment was delayed to the point where your symptoms are severe and won’t go away at all. You shouldn’t have to live with symptoms if you don’t have to.

The better able you are to minimize how symptoms disrupt your life: the easier it will be to function in the world, set goals and achieve them, and to have an easier time of it in your everyday life.

My platform is that getting the right treatment right away can result in a better outcome in life for individuals diagnosed with schizophrenia,bipolar, and other mental illnesses.

I was hospitalized for a total of just under five weeks. It doesn’t upset me that I had a break. What I’m compelled to speak out against is cookie-cutter treatment of individuals with mental illnesses.

In 1987, when I was first diagnosed, I was shunted into a community mental health system ill-equipped to help a young person like me that had so much potential. I wrote about this before: how my quiet nature was seen as aberrant; how I had to fight to be taken seriously in my goal of living on my own and obtaining a full-time job.

No one-size-fits-all-treatment can exist. You need to talk to your treatment providers in an open, honest dialogue to arrive at the best treatment for your needs at this moment in time.

A friend with schizophrenia who rose up to be the CEO of corporations had a psychiatrist tell him, “Don’t make up a story about being a CEO to feel better about having schizophrenia.”

This was circa 2004: too late in the history of the recovery movement for a treatment provider to be reinforcing to his patient that there’s not much you can do if you have this illness.

I want to be a cheerleader for people diagnosed with mental illnesses, regardless of whether or not you have symptoms.

This friend I talk about heard voices for 10 years. His first doctor tried every new drug that came out until they found the medication that totally stopped the voices.

The goal is to not give up the fight to have a better life.

I’ll end here by telling readers you’re not doomed to a life of disability.

You can have a better life.

Remission And Recovery

Read about how early schizophrenia intervention in the prodromal stage changes the nature of the illness.

I’m a big fan of treating individuals in the prodromal stage of schizophrenia.

The anti-psychiatry nonsense that you should want to live in a psychotic state because it’s a natural life experience reinforces stigma.

I say: treat the symptoms immediately to stop the person from becoming permanently disabled. Every other female blogger I’ve followed over the years (one with 500 followers) whose treatment was delayed too long has suffered ongoing damage.

The Harvard Mental Health Letter of November 2008 stated that the earlier you treat schizophrenia with medication, the more likely the drugs will be effective. The longer you wait to get treated, the worse the outcome. The earlier you’re treated, you’ll require a lower dose of medication most likely, offsetting the side effects.

Having symptoms is not a walk in the park. The so-called anti-psychiatry crowd with their “alternatives to psychosis treatment” are engaging in practicing medicine without a license when they claim to have effective “treatments” like taking a psychotic person into a quiet room and talking to them gently.

Early intervention programs that treat individuals who are in the prodromal stage of schizophrenia have proven effective in halting full-blown psychosis and the imminent disability that occurs from delayed treatment. The PIER early intervention program in Maine was started easily 10 years ago and it’s still going strong.

The choice is clear to me: if you have the opportunity to stop the symptoms completely, do this as soon as possible. Pronto. Immediately. Without delay.

Yes: I’m a fan of the medical model: of using medication to treat schizophrenia for individuals that need medication to achieve remission or at least a better shot at recovery.

Taking medication is how I got to be in remission. Research indicates 25 percent of individuals diagnosed with schizophrenia can achieve a spontaneous remission without needing to continue medication.

I’m not one of those 25 percent. And if you ask me the goal in schizophrenia treatment should be remission. As a psychiatrist told me years ago: “Total symptom relief is the only acceptable outcome for you, Chris.” He wasn’t kidding.

Being in remission or at least having minimal symptoms is in my estimation as equally important as getting to recovery. I’m not a fan of the current “consumer recovery movement” with its anti-medication zealots advising vulnerable people to accept not taking meds and living with psychosis.

No one I know who went on a drug holiday to discontinue their schizophrenia medication achieved a spontaneous remission. They wound up sicker than ever and doomed to collecting SSI.

This choice is clear to me too: that when you’re able to achieve remission by taking medication the future is wide open. Your life certainly becomes easier than if you have to struggle every day with recurring symptoms. Why suffer “major ongoing episodes” if you don’t have to?

Early intervention:

Yes. Yes. And yes.

360 Degrees

It’s remarkable to me that every human being is capable of making a 360 degree turn or change for the better. At any point in our lives and our recovery. And really, the revolution full-circle is an evolution of what each of us is capable of.

In recovery as in life, there are no endpoints or limits, just the potential for continued self-growth. Human beings can be like perennials that bloom over and over throughout our lives when we nurture ourselves, and act kind and are good to ourselves.

I also realized that medication and self-motivation are the twin engines driving recovery for individuals diagnosed with schizophrenia and bipolar. I learned this the hard way when I went on a failed drug holiday in 1992 when I was 27.

Without medication, your efforts are useless because you’re straining against the illness. And having the medication without have the desire to do better is the quickest way to having a life where it’s “one day like any other” spent watching TV in your room.

The song lyrics from the 1980s about how it’s just another night on the edge of town reminds me of the time I spent in the residence in the dangerous apartment complex on yes, the edge of town. A friend and I back then joked that to have fun and amuse ourselves we’d have cockroach races to see which bug got to the other side of the living room first.

I’ll end here by quoting Viktor Frankl from his holocaust memoir Man’s Search for Meaning: “He who has a why to live can bear almost any how.”

It gets better. It can get better.

Each of us extending a watering can of hope is what matters most.

Always be hopeful, because hope heals.